“we begin by trusting our ignorance and calling it innocence.” Ozwald Chambers
Did reading that sentence pinch you too? Did it reach in and tighten around your heart a bit? Please tell me it’s not just me who sees herself standing right there.
Because on any given day it’s how I think…it’s my subconscious stance.
I can claim I’m a good person. There’s no “evil” in me. I can proclaim with complete certainty I am not a murderer, adulterer, thief, liar, slanderer, etc. etc. etc.
But, here’s the point that pinches me and wakes me from that certainty. I can proclaim it today, but where will my heart stand tomorrow? Or the next day? Or the next?
Do you wonder if the people who commit these actions start their day with goodness and trip and fall into sin? Do they wake up like me and you and somehow find themselves living an alternate life before days end?
Sis, are you like me? Don’t we stand assured we are better, we are good, we are safe? Can you look back and recognize how this is faulty thinking?
When I look in the rear view mirror, I see the truth. The truth of how I have stood on the very edge of those very sins and felt the Holy Spirit grab the hem of my heart and pull me back just in the nick of time. Have you seen it too? The ugly truth of the darkness that lurks just under our pure hearts?
Oh Sis, I know what is in me. And to be honest I am frightened by it. Sis, maybe you are staring at me with wide eyes as I confess my broken self right here in front of all the world to see. Okay, so I haven’t murdered anyone. But my heart has inched over the line in other ways and my certainty of how good I am becomes blurred by that truth. The ugly truth of what lies within. Oh, I don’t want to look at it, confess it, even give it a name. But nevertheless, it finds it’s way to the surface on any given day.
The truth is that the only good in me, the only thing that is certainly good is Jesus Christ.
And the only assurance that His goodness will triumph over my sinful nature is the Holy Spirit. Without Him the evil in me will win. It will eventually convince me I am more.
Oh you may be thinking “evil” seems like too strong a word to describe what’s within us. But if we temper it and call it anything else aren’t we fooling ourselves. It needs to be ugly, and dark or we won’t be moved to run from it. We won’t be moved to spend every single bit of God’s power within us to turn away.
So Sis, here’s a bit of homework, for you and for me and for us. Let’s be honest with ourselves. Let’s sit in front of a mirror and look for the dark spots. Let’s find them and pick them out of the light, before they have a chance to grow and multiply and eclipse the goodness of God in us.
“We cannot trust our ignorance and call it innocence”—we must believe and receive the truth of what Jesus says….we need Him. Every single day.
Here’s my prayer for us!
Thank you for planting the light of goodness in us, even when you see the possibility of darkness. We trust You to keep us turned toward the Light. Thank you for reminding us of how easily we turn away when left to our own choices. Oh Lord, we live in a world that determines what is good enough and trick ourselves into agreement with it all. So Father let your Word set the true standards, let your Word remind us of how far we are from Your perfection. Lord we cling to the only hope we have that we can get one thing right, the hope of Jesus Christ who paid the price to light us from within, so we are perfectly good in Your eyes. Thank you for knowing exactly what we would need and providing the Holy Spirit to guide us. We need You…Father, Son and Holy Spirit. Amen