What you see is what you get.

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There are a few chores I can put off without much guilt. It’s weird because they are usually the ones I only have to face a couple times a year. One of those is cleaning the windows. Are you with me here?

I can walk past them day after day, week after week, month after month never realizing I am missing an opportunity to see something differently.  Missing the opportunity to see something with clarity. Missing the opportunity to see something from an entirely new perspective. Maybe even missing a single small thing buried beneath the grime of the daily winds and weather that tend to cover the shiny on the other side.

But let’s be honest here, who wants to stop and clear the way? We’d rather use our hand to rub a small circular smudge in the middle of the pane than spend an hour or two with bucket, squeegee and paper towels to do a thorough job. The kind of job giving us endless viewing pleasure.

Do you ever feel the same nagging feeling when you look at your life? You just long for a little clarity. Could someone please just clear the fog, wipe away the smudges, clean up the splatters? I hear the old saying “what you see is what you get” playing in my head and I wonder if the things I long for might be closer than I ever imagined. There’s just a blur of grime in the way.

Yeah, the cleaning and clearing is a challenging job. I do my best but always seem to step back to find streaks and smears. I am recognizing there is a definite method to allow light unhindered entrance. Those streaks are just annoying reminders I won’t always get it all on the first pass. But the little bit of clarity I glimpse helps me press on.

With each pass I recognize time and technique will be more effective than strength and speed. I have to admit, I don’t like it one bit, but patience produces clarity. Stepping back assessing the job from different vantage points allows me to to make slight adjustments. One pass after another brings every little thing I am looking at into full, bright, clear focus.

The funniest thing is I never even realized how much I was missing. I never realized how I was living, loving, looking through the dullness. So maybe that chore I ignore is worth the time after all.

How about you Sis? What’s blocking your view today? Are you longing for a bit of clarity? Is there a chore you have put off until it just doesn’t make sense to ignore it any longer?

Be encouraged. Because if you are willing to do the work, what you see is what you get. Though the job seems daunting and dread follows you in, the view is worth it all. Take if from a girl who’s enjoying the light and seeing things clearly for the first time in quite awhile. Press on dear girl. Press on.


Dear Father,

We find You when we clear the windows of our hearts. We allow the wind and weather of the world to cloud our view and stand confused by our limited understanding. Help us to remember to stop and take the time to take care of the chores that hinder the clarity of your light. You invite us to come to you when we are stuck wondering which way to turn. But Lord sometimes we come with something still standing between us. Help us to see clearly what needs a bit of care, a bit of cleaning. We know it will be worth the effort it takes because what we see is what we  get. And Father we all need to see more of your light. All my love, amen.



But Lord…


The Lord said, Go!

Ananais said, But, Lord!

But the Lord said, Go!

So Ananais went.

Acts 9:10-19

’Now in Damascus there was a disciple named Ananais; and the Lord said to him in a vision, “Ananais.” And he answered, “Here I am, Lord.” And the Lord said to him, “Get up and go to the street called Straight, and ask at the house of Judas for a man from Tarsus named Saul; for he is praying there, and in a vision he has seen a man named Ananais come in and place his hands on him, so that he may regain his sight.”  But Ananais answered, “Lord, I have heard from many people about this man, especially how much suffering and evil he has brought on your saints [God’s people] at Jerusalem; and here [in Damascus] he has authority from the high priests to put in chains all who call on Your name [confessing you as Savior]. But the Lord said to him, “Go, for this man is a deliberately chosen instrument of Mine, to bear My name before the Gentiles and kings and the sons of Israel; for I will make clear to him how much he must suffer and endure for My name’s sake.” So Ananais left and entered the house, and he laid his hands on Saul and said, “Brother Saul, the Lord Jesus, who appeared to you on the road to Damascus, has sent me so that you may regain your sight and be filled with the Holy Spirit [in order to proclaim Christ to both Jews and Gentiles]. Immediately something like scales fell from Saul’s eyes, and he regained his sight. Then he got up and was baptized; and he took some food and was strengthened.’

Acts 9:10-19 tells the story of a man who doubted but did it anyway. Can you relate Sis?

I get it. When God says go, I run through a mental checklist of what it could cost me. I’m a lot like Ananais. He knew who Saul was and fear stepped into the path before him. Sis, isn’t there always a form of fear stepping between us and obedience?

I wonder how Ananais missed this promise. “I have shown him (Saul) a vision of a man named Ananais coming in and laying hands on him so he can see again.” God revealed he had gone before Ananais.

Because Ananais is so focused on who Saul is, he can’t see clearly who God says he is.  Because Ananais is so focused on Saul’s power he can’t see clearly the promise of God’s power in him.

Sis, I think sometimes we are so fiercely focused on fear of the unknown that we forget God is the all-knowing. When God asks us to go, could we cling to the promise he has gone before us?  There is courage to be found there.

I love how God in his infinite patience explains the plan to Ananais. He gave him the encouragement he needed. So Ananais went. And in the going, he found God’s confident heart beating with his. He trusted God even in the unknowns.

When Ananias found Saul he wasn’t timid.

When Ananais found Saul he didn’t stand at a safe distance.

When Ananais found Saul he laid his hands on him and said,

”Brother Saul, the Lord Jesus, who appeared to you on the road, has sent me so that you might regain your sight, and be filled with the Holy Spirit.”

Okay Sis, did you catch that? Ananais called Saul his “brother”.  Because Jesus loved Saul, his persecutor, Ananais loved him too. He trusted Jesus’ perspective even when he didn’t see evidence or reason to. He trusted God even in the unknowns.

I love that Ananais proclaims he was sent so Saul could REgain his sight. Maybe you are like me in recognizing the beauty of grace poured out on Saul through these words.

Saul was a man longing to serve God. He had lead a passionate life for God. He had lead a purpose-driven life for God. But somewhere along the way he lost sight of God. His pride lead him to judge others, blinding him to grace and mercy.

Sometimes we need to sit in darkness before God allows us to REgain our sight. He acknowledges we once saw him clearly, but have allowed the world to crowd in and cloud the truth. The truth that we have a great need for grace.

Ananais said, but Lord…

Saul said, but LORD…

We say, but Lord…

Sis, don’t you love how God will get through one way or another. He will either tap us on the shoulder with a little unveiling of the bigger picture, or he will allow us to sit a spell in darkness so we will regain our sight with a new perspective.

On any given day I can stand alongside Ananais and Saul.

But here’s the picture I cling to. I see Jesus laying his hands on either side of our face, leaning in and whispering—will you trust me now?

Will you say yes to my plan?

Will you go where I say go?

Because Ananais and Saul were willing to trust God, we can find hope for the moments we react with the same words…but Lord. I am so thankful for their stories because we get to see how God will take a single solitary effort of obedience and change the world.

So Sis, lets turn toward trust in the all-knowing when we stand facing the unknown. He’s got the plan, he’s gone before us. It’s a promise we can depend on.


Dear Father,

We stand at the road leading to unknowns and we shake in our boots. Oh, we hear your voice, we long to go, but we stagger under the burden of fear. Lord, help us to see your perspective. Help us to see the path you have already set out for us. Oh Father, help us to remember all the other times you have gone before us, because it reminds us to trust you in the new journeys. When we stand hearing you invite us to go, give us courage like Ananais, built on  the promise you have gone before us. When we stand hearing you invite us to change our perspective, give us a new vision like Saul to see through your eyes. Lord, we live thankful you believe we can go and make a difference in this world for your Kingdom. We depend on the promise you will always go WITH us. Thank you Father. We declare we can’t do it without you.

all my love,




Does Practice Make Perfect?


Dear Sis,

A funny, “aha” moment struck me at the gym today. Who knew there were lessons to be learned from lunges? Yes, I’m completely serious.

My workout is an hour-long succession of movements. Starting on what I call the “dreadmill” we move to the rowing machine and then on to floor exercises. Just like most people I have my favorite parts of the workout. The parts I’m good at. The parts I can do easily and with skill.

Todays workout presented a challenge called the “skaters lunge”. It was an old foe. It is a movement where you launch yourself into a side to side lunge while reaching to the floor. It’s similar to what you see in the Winter Olympic Games, but without ice to glide on and minus the smooth moves.

I will never forget my first introduction to this move about 2 years ago. I was at the beginning of my fitness journey. I worked with a personal trainer who consistently challenged my balance.  Enter the “skaters lunge”. When he demonstrated the move it seemed simple enough. My brain said “I can do that”, but my body said “what you talkin’ about?”

Let’s just say his demo looked nothing like my execution. I’m pretty sure I looked like I was having a seizure. There was no evidence of the graceful side to side movement he performed.

So back to the present. Here’s THE PRESENT. Today, at my new gym, the trainer challenged us to do twenty skater lunges. In the middle of the reps, she walked over to me and asked if I was a dancer, because I did the lunges with such grace. I actually laughed out loud in between gasping for breath.

So maybe it’s true what they say. Practice makes perfect. Of course by the third set of those lunges my form began to deteriorate a bit. They weren’t looking as lovely and graceful as the first ones.  So maybe, just maybe it would be better to proclaim a new mantra.  Practice makes progress!

Practice makes perfect is a phrase that can make us cringe. When you hear those words you just know it is most likely going to be a long, painful process to get to the goal. It’s going to require steadfast, step by step determination.  But the biggest challenge is the fails. The fall down and skin your knees kinda fails.

Sis, do you know what I’m talking about here? Have you ever practiced and practiced and found yourself still tripping over the same spot? Maybe you are like me and you found yourself standing back up trying your best to recover gracefully. After a few tries, we begin to wonder if we will ever get it right. We begin to wonder if we have it in us to try again. And we just plain wonder if we have it in us.

Oh Sis, you need to know, I get that. I stand there with you with scars to prove it. They are deep, ugly scars that never quite go away completely.

Starting again requires a new perspective here. I am counting those scars as my badges of courage. Because I’m still here, I’m still standing and I’m still trying. Those scars are a  constant reminder that I got up again because I am able to do all things through Christ who strengthens me. It’s here in this confident belief I find boldness for a do-over.

Sis, I’ve started to realize something else that gives me hope. Real hope. If we are honest we will recognize that practice doesn’t make perfect. Only the love of Christ can do that. So I take a deep breath and feel the fullness of joy in the land of His love that takes away all my failures, my tripping, my stumbling attempts and makes them into the most graceful offering. Jesus stepped into the world and reached out his hand to help me up, to help you up.

So Sis, I invite you to come along with me. Tomorrow I will rise and practice again. Practice while depending on the Perfector of my faith. I will lean in and hold on when I feel off-balance. One thing driving my determination is the sweet assurance that God won’t give up on me if I don’t give up on Him. Let’s start a new day proclaiming practice makes progress.  I think Jesus will be the first to pin that badge of courage on us and celebrate our progress as a triumph.

Love You Sis,


My prayer for you and me:

Dear Father,

You found us trying to do our best, be our best and you knew we would need a little help. You knew we would have a few fails along the way and you covered the mess with a whole lot of grace and love through your Son, Jesus. We live thankful you never leave us alone in the journey. You stand beside us and guide us and remind us who we are in your eyes. It gives us strength to get up and try again. Knowing you are for us makes all the difference. Lord, we long to live for you too. Help us to live and love practicing what Jesus taught us. We know we won’t get it perfect, but with you by our side we will make progress. May your kingdom by glorified by our efforts. We love you Father.  Amen.


See and Be Seen!

Morning my friends,

I jotted down these few notes yesterday morning and as I read them today, I thought of how we never feel like our purpose is quite clear. We spend days, weeks, months, years…a lifetime trying to see with clarity the path God has set out for us. Could it be we are just looking in all the wrong places?

Would you be willing to join me and try a little experiment to test our vision. A challenge to the usual perspective. The same perspective the world holds out as truth because it’s what everyone else is doing. I wonder if we would be willing to take a chance and find a new view.

1. Look UP! Sometimes we are so intent on keeping our head down and trudging through we miss the view altogether.
2. Look OUT! There is something worth seeing outside ourselves, our world, our understanding.
3. Look IN! There is a great reward when we look into someone’s eyes, into someone’s heart, into someone’s story.

Why look? Because you will see what is beautiful, what is worth treasuring, what needs to be seen.
And once you see, you get the sweet pleasure of leaning in and whispering with gentleness again and again and again…I see you, and there is good in you.

Because the world just longs for one single person to see them. To see the unique beautiful thing in them and take a single moment to point to it with child like joy.

We stand in wonder of our purpose in this place, searching to and fro for answers to the big questions, when the purpose is in the people right before our very eyes.

Jesus knew this. His entire life was a journey home, back to the place he belonged. And on His journey he allowed his path to be interrupted by people who just needed to be seen. They each needed just one person to look up, to look out, to look in. Jesus sees the little glimmering thing in someone’s eyes, in someone’s heart, in someone’s story and He points to it with joy. He points to the gift they are to the world.

I think Jesus was the perfect example of seeing people as His purpose. He knew his final destination, but didn’t spend time thinking about how he was going to get there. He knew His home was waiting for His return, and that confidence gave Him release from the focus of what came next. His question was always who came next.

Has God ever shown you the beauty of a soul so clearly you found it impossible to look away? When you see the evidence of Jesus in a person you lean in because you know, you just know there is much to be gained by it. It’s worth seeking out every time.
It’s a place for lingering because it fulfills a longing. We need glimpses of Him.

What if our purpose was to be the one who sees the beauty and doesn’t just admire it from afar, but who steps up, steps out, and steps in to speak words proclaiming it?. What could we build if our purpose was people?

You know, all of us lonely people just trying to make it through this journey need each other.

Could we make a place with a pace that allows us to just breathe deep and find rest for the weary, worn out parts of our souls? It could be a place we walk away from immediately looking to return because someone there recognizes the one lovely thing in us. It could be a refuge from the world we dwell in that consistently tells us we are not enough. It could be a place to see and be seen.

So if we are looking for a purpose to awaken our passion, maybe we need to look at the people who happen to be standing right in front of us today. Because my friend, they are just like you, and just like me, they long to be seen. Will we allow our journey home to be interrupted?

Someone, somewhere needs us to see the one good thing in them. Will we look up, look out, look in and proclaim the beauty right there?

I’m in! Because Jesus did it for me!


my prayer…

dear Father,

we tend to look in every direction trying to find purpose for our time here on earth. We think it’s gonna be a big thing, a bold thing, a bright thing. But we are measuring it wrong. We stand in a world that tells us in loud voices that things have to be done, plans have to me made. But, You showed us a different way. You saw us. You saw that we needed to be seen. And the love that flowed through the way You looked into us, well it changed the world. So Lord, let us see others the way you see us. With love brimming, compassion spilling and sweet whispers of encouragement tumbling from our lips. Help us to just look and see the purpose You proclaimed, to love the people right in our path. Amen

Who Are We?

question markSitting here in Starbucks with some iced tea, just scribbling down some thoughts after the Sunday sermon. To be honest, it was a seriously challenging, throw-down kind of sermon. The kind that makes you squirm in your seat and avoid all eye contact. The kind that puts a choke hold on your heart. The best kind.

The truth sneaks up on you through the single harmless questions.

Who are we?

We the people?

We the church?

We the fiercely loved by God?

If someone watched a movie telling our life stories, who would they see?

Jesus gives us a glimpse of the story he invites us to be part of in Matthew 25: 34-40

“Then the King will say to those on his right, ‘Come you who are blessed by my Father, inherit the kingdom prepared for you from the creation of the world. For I was hungry, and you fed me. I was thirsty, and you gave me a drink. I was a stranger, and you invited me into your home. I was naked and you gave me clothing. I was sick and you cared for me. I was in prison and you visited me.’ Then these righteous ones will reply, ‘Lord, when did we ever see you hungry and feed you? Or thirsty and give you something to drink? Or a stranger and show you hospitality? Or naked and give you clothing? When did we ever see you sick or in prison and visit you?’ And the King will say, ‘I tell you the truth, when you did it to one of the least of my brothers and sisters, you were doing it to me!’

(Italics mine.)

Some days we struggle to “see” the kind of people Jesus describes in this story. In our day-to-day lives, most of us are not confronted by these real physical needs. But, as I read through this again I wonder if I am missing the true definition of the distress.

I picture Jesus asking me, do you see

someone hungry for love?

someone thirsty for relief?

someone longing to be invited?

someone standing naked and abandoned?

someone feeling sick with regret?

someone imprisoned by shame?

And if you do, can you see me in their eyes? Would you do this for me?

Jesus invites us to be bold and step up.

Jesus invites us to be brave and step in.

Jesus invites us to love others like we love him.

With sincere love.

“You were cleansed from your sins when you obeyed the truth, so now you must show sincere love to each other as brothers and sisters. Love each other deeply with all your heart.” 1 Peter 1:22

I believe when we step in, accepting the invitation to love Jesus by loving others, he answers that question I asked at the beginning of this journey.

Who are we?

We are ONE.

Dear Lord,

Thank you for always asking the right questions. The ones that make me squirm and check my heart. We make excuses because we don’t find the kind of people you describe in this scripture in our paths. Help us to see past our understanding and to see those we pass everyday with new eyes. Don’t let us turn away when we recognize that point of pain in their eyes. Because Lord, we proclaim that we will step in, because we recognize you in their faces and we would do it for you. Because your love propels us into that very place. We remember what it felt like to stand alone, and we will not leave someone you fiercely love longing to be invited. Oh Father, we know who we are, we are ONE with you. Let our lives proclaim that truth by the way we love others deeply with all our heart. Amen..


Unplanned, Unorganized and Uncomplicated

two-children-running-garden-sprinkler-26103135Ever have one thought lead you to another and before you realize it you’re traveling down memory lane? This morning the sprinkler system came on and propelled me down that very path. I was thinking back to my childhood days. The carefree summers spent playing hopscotch, marbles, running through sprinklers. My best friend and I devoted hours to both the swings and the challenge of bumping each other off the teeter-totter. We ate popsicles in the shade of the trees and played with our Barbies in a make-believe world.

It was all so unplanned, unorganized and uncomplicated. We just woke up, ate our Lucky Charms, threw on our flip-flops and out the door we ran. Skipping hand in hand, fully expecting the day to unfold on its own. We just trusted there would be joy in the adventure.

I find myself longing for those days. Don’t you? Simple times when one momentary pleasure flowed into another.

But, I find myself organizing every moment of my life. I’ve got a plan. I’ve got a project. I’ve got a purpose. Yes, even in my relationship with God. It all has to be very neat. No room for unexpected. I even pray for God to show me his plans. Because there has to be a plan.

I always believed God had a purpose for me in this life. I’ve poured out so many prayers asking him to show me. I think I’m a little afraid I might walk right by and miss it, leaving him standing there disappointed.  And after the extravagant gift he has given me in Jesus, that’s a crushing thought. I’ve even gone so far as to beg him for a divine appointment. I find myself waiting for clear vision of the concrete plan.

Does your heart ache for insight too? Are you wanting to step into that place where purpose and pleasure collide?  I think God may want the exact same thing.

I’m thinking the simplicity we long for is what he intended all along. The unplanned, unorganized, uncomplicated rhythm of days spent with him. No plan, no project, no purpose. Except to wake up. Wake up to what brings him pleasure. The pleasure of our company. Fill up on the food for thought in his Word. Then run, letting the door of doubt slam behind us.

We just skip hand in hand with him, expecting the days to unfold on their own. Trusting that the things making our heart sing make his sing too. I believe there will be joy in the adventure.

One momentary pleasure flowing into another.

Psalm 16:11  “You have made known to me the path of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures of your right hand.”

Psalm 16:11 (The Message) “Now you’ve got my feet on the life path, all radiant from the shining of your face. Ever since you took my hand, I’m on the right way.”


Part of the Crowd


With my high school reunion right around the corner, memories of those days flood back. The good, the bad and the ugly. Let’s clarify, there was a lot of good, always involving friendships. There were a few bad, usually involving study habits, or the lack thereof. Then comes the ugly, usually involving the hair styles of the day I was determined to try.

But as I think back to those days, the one thing that stands out was the longing to belong. We each came into that school searching for that place to fit. Though we all dreamed of the independence we would one day experience, we knew this was a time we would need our “crowd” for support. We needed our people to stand close in both the celebrations and the struggles. We needed to surround ourselves with people who had a common denominator. (Oh that math teacher would be so proud!)

Things haven’t really changed much since then. If we look back in history, we recognize we have always needed to stand together. Unity in searching for truth and love has always been a catalyst for crowds.

Mark 3: 7-8

“Jesus went out to the lake with his disciples, and a large crowd followed him. They came from Galilee, Judea, Jerusalem, Idumea, from east of the Jordan River, and even from as far north as Tyre and Sidon. The news about his miracles had spread far and wide, and vast numbers of people came to see him.”

I imagine the people of all these different areas had stood in other crowds looking for answers. Hoping for rescue. Maybe their physical needs were different, but they had a common denominator. This crowd leaned in, shoulder to shoulder searching for a glimmer of hope. They heard the stories told of this healer of hearts and body and they were drawn to this place by the promise.

Haven’t we all stood in crowds hoping?  I have been drawn to many different crowds looking for that person, place or thing to fulfill my longing. Not even completely clear on what I was longing for. I just knew there was something more. There had to be.

Can you identify? Let’s see if any of these sound familiar. I stood in crowds that believed a man’s love could fill that place.. I stood in crowds that believed wealth could fill that place. I stood in crowd after crowd, leaning in, searching for the missing piece to fill that place. I stayed this path until the day a beautiful friend invited me into a new crowd…one that pressed in close to the One who offers the perfect peace.  This new crowd stood with me and helped me to find the truth that finally silenced the lies that  whispered for years and years that I was not lovable. In this journey I found what I had always been longing for, that thing that fills the empty places.

The missing piece was missing the peace of knowing the love of Jesus Christ.

It’s a new day. I stand here with healed heart all because someone loved me enough to invite me into this crowd. Their crowd. And believe me when I say I didn’t fit. It was messy and complicated and hard. And lovely, and gracefilled, and soulfilling. And I will forever live thankful for this crowd that followed so close to the Jesus they love, there was no other choice but to welcome me into His open arms.

Dear Father,

Thank you for inviting me into the crowd that presses in close to you. Help me to always remember what is was like standing in those other crowds, wondering and wandering. Help me to always be the one with eyes wide open…heart wide open…willing spirit to invite others into this crowd that stands expectantly at your feet because of the love you have lavished on us. Don’t let me walk by without reaching out to grasp a hand and pull a pleading, bleeding heart into your embrace. Because you loved me…I pray I am never too distracted to tell everyone who you are and how you continue to transform my heart every single day. Let my love shine into a world longing for your healing touch. Help me to stand so close to you that people will ask me to introduce you today and every tomorrow. Amen